Same. Not much around here in my travel range (not aware of anything social applicable to me), so the people who talk to me are definitely being cordial. Which is less awkward for me anyhow.
I don’t leave the house (or talk to people) enough for the idea to seem anything other than silly.
So funny thing you mention that. You’re describing me.
For a very long time, I was in denial about being touched with the 'tism. Some behaviors of mine that I noticed I couldn’t ignored and asked some friends about them. Did some tests without thinking through my constant camouflage and yeah, definitely have ASD. I mentioned it to friends and family and they all said something similar to “you finally figured it out huh?” So hopefully I can start to gain more energy for going out as long as I don’t feel the need to camouflage. One thing at a time though.
The other thing that doesn’t help is that I identify demiguy more than as a man. So I know my behavior and appearance doesn’t quite fit the “masculinity” picture - regardless if it’s toxic or not. Im definitely male, I’m definitely attracted to women, but like I like having soft hands. I’m a softer personality, I’d rather listen to gossip than think/pay attention/care about sports.
Having discovered that though, maybe it too will help my confidence and lead to better interactions.
I’m challenging myself to be this real me, and see if it leads to more signals.
Still doesn’t help trying to find where people are.
Same. Not much around here in my travel range (not aware of anything social applicable to me), so the people who talk to me are definitely being cordial. Which is less awkward for me anyhow.
I don’t leave the house (or talk to people) enough for the idea to seem anything other than silly.
So funny thing you mention that. You’re describing me.
For a very long time, I was in denial about being touched with the 'tism. Some behaviors of mine that I noticed I couldn’t ignored and asked some friends about them. Did some tests without thinking through my constant camouflage and yeah, definitely have ASD. I mentioned it to friends and family and they all said something similar to “you finally figured it out huh?” So hopefully I can start to gain more energy for going out as long as I don’t feel the need to camouflage. One thing at a time though.
The other thing that doesn’t help is that I identify demiguy more than as a man. So I know my behavior and appearance doesn’t quite fit the “masculinity” picture - regardless if it’s toxic or not. Im definitely male, I’m definitely attracted to women, but like I like having soft hands. I’m a softer personality, I’d rather listen to gossip than think/pay attention/care about sports.
Having discovered that though, maybe it too will help my confidence and lead to better interactions.
I’m challenging myself to be this real me, and see if it leads to more signals.
Still doesn’t help trying to find where people are.