Organisations are social ecosystems. This happens. Some person I don’t know said online: it’s more important to be likable then to be good at your Job. Be good, kind, helpful to people, treat everyone with true interest for what they do and respect. Have some passion. Gossip will likely stop. They will protect you as a person and not try to find your problems.

You say something is wrong with you. Not having enough resources to get through the day is not normal. I’m in therapy because of this. Don’t get me wrong, I won’t diagnose anyone but your message spoke to me and if it is Bad enough for you it might be worth going to the doctor and check if your brain might lack something that other people have. Chemistry can heavily influence your life.

I feel you and I’m surprised how many like-minded people here are. Just in case: have you checked spoon theory? Is there’s something wrong with you and your resources?